Fin

Alright, kids. I can't do this any longer. It's stressing me out, it's pissing me off and I don't like to be pissed off. Blogger and I are no more. It's been real.












































LMAO! I know I'm a part-time blogger (side eye'ing Milly) but I ain't giving up! Blogger has finally pissed me off so I'm moving to Wordpress. I've been over there cleaning up and getting ready for company so go check me out. I've moved my entire archive over there so update your links. Deuces!

My New House

Lake Erie

Diva, I'll do my fridge and cabinets post manana. Today, I am posting pictures from a week or so ago when my friends and I went to the beach.
I have more pics but Blogger is ACTING LIKE A BITCH and won't let me post them. I took a gorgeous picture of the sun setting but I can't post it. *sigh*








The natural exfoliation is so on point...

Copycattin'

MEME Rules:
1. Put Your iPod/ music player on shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER WHAT
After you’ve answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and then let them know they’ve been tagged to do the meme themselves!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
"So Special" - Dru Hill

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
"Bad Girl" - Usher

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
"Get Money" - Junior M.A.F.I.A.


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
"Got Me Going" - Day 26


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
“I Want You" - Marvin Gaye


WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
"Flaws and All" - Beyonce


WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
"Kick Out of You" - Dwele


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
"Love Song" - Sara Bareilles


WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
“Turn Da Lights Off" - Tweet

WHAT IS 2+2?
"Heart Shaped Box" - Nirvana


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
"Always and Forever" - Luther Vandross


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Weekend Love" - Dwele


WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
"My Immortal" - Evanescence


WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
"Stars" - Kindred The Family Soul


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
"Prototype" - Outkast


WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
"Love Don't Make No Sense" - Joe


WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
"Movin On" - Brandy


WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
"Oye Como Va" - Tito Puente


WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
"Your Eyes" - Xscape


WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
"Don't Speak" - No Doubt


WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
"Spoiled" - Joss Stone


WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
“Fire & Desire" - Rick James



LOL! This was fun and some of these were sorta on point. LMAO @ what they'll be playing at my wedding.

I'm tagging anyone who wants to do it.

*sigh*

Blogger is being an extreme hater right now and won't let me post pictures. So, there goes that topic.

SBC has already blogged about it but we FINALLY met in person this past weekend. We went to C.alifornia P.izza K.itchen and had a fabulous time. Even after I spilled my Pepsi all over the table. Heh. She is as sweet as an angel on Sunday and just as cute as she wants to be. I wish I could put her in my pocket and bring her to work with me so I'd have someone cool to talk to everyday.
We made plans to meet up at least once a month to go try some restaurants and go shopping.
Girlie, we didn't take one picture to mark this event. What were we thinking??? LOL! Next time!

Uh, what else is going on? Ummmmm...

Sorry guys...my head is so messed up right now. I just bought a plasma TV and whenever I make a major purchase like that I have serious buyers remorse for a few days.
Ok, but listen...I had the money. I was planning on buying one. It was on sale on Best Buy's website. I had $100 in gift cards. It's a Samsung. It's the size I wanted.

ARGHGHGHGHGGGHHHHH!

Please, help me feel better. Leave some encouraging words in my comments!

Thoughts on Scorpio Women

Throughout my college career (lol), I have switched schools 3 times. I started out at The University of T.oledo. They gave me lots and lots of scholarship money so that was an obvious choice. When I left there, I attended Cleveland S.tate University. I had been there for a while before I decided to transfer to a school where my degree would actually mean something. Not knocking anyone who has graduated from CSU because at this point, you are doing better than me. But, and I know I'm not the only one who has this view, CSU is sorta like...grown up high school. I transferred to Baldwin W.allace and I am loving it there.
Anyway, at every school I have taken a computer related class. Windows, email, operating systems, etc. Stuff that I see and use EVERY DAY. I tested out of the class at UT. When I transferred to CSU, that credit didn't transfer with me. So, I tested out of it at CSU. When I transferred to BW, again...it didn't transfer. They won't let me test out of it but they are letting me take a CLEP exam for it. Have you guys heard of those? You pay $65 to take the exams that they offer and you get college credit for it. Well, I had never heard of them before I got to BW. Come to find out CSU offers it but my advisor NEVER said anything about it. That hoe.

So, blah, blah, blah, I was in the library the other day picking up some books on Visual Basic, Java, etc. I didn't know that the test covers these things so I have to study. I don't know shit about programming. As you can tell by this bare bones ass blog here.
Before I go up to the counter to check out, I come across this thick book about astrological signs and how each sign interacts with the other.
I picked it up and checked that out as well. I started reading it the other night and it's really good. I skipped right to the section called Scorpio woman (me) and Virgo man (D). It really fucked me up because everything it says is SO true. And it got me to thinking about me and how I behave in relationships.

The thing that really caused problems in mine and D's relationship was the lack of trust. On both our parts. I've never been the jealous type chick but I started to find myself acting that way with him. And that shit is yucky. So unattractive. I know now what caused all that but that ain't what this post is about. LOL

When I am in a relationship (and happy), I am the bestest girlfriend in the universe. For real. The cutesy shit, the freaky shit, the cooky and cleany shit...I do all that. In return, I expect you to treasure me. Make me feel protected and loved and it's all good.
I am fiercely loyal. So much so that I have a tattoo that simply says Loyal. That's a huge, huge part of who I am.
So in reality, no guy ever has to worry about me cheating. It just won't happen. Not only because it's happened to me and I know how that shit feels...but I really do take relationships seriously and cheating is not the business.
To me...it's like a gift. You treat me good and I will be the most loyal chick you have ever known. I take pride in that fact.
So, it's sometimes puzzling and frustrating when a boyfriend doesn't trust me. It's like...helloooooo, this is me. Trust is something you don't have to worry about. I love being in a relationship. I have no problem shutting other dudes down if they try to holler. I have male friends but if I tell you that nothing will ever happen, that's not something you'll ever have to worry about again.

So anyway, I'm reading this book and it's basically saying ALL of this. I wanted to smack D upside the head with it. LOL
He does think that I embody other Scorpio traits such as the craziness (LOL, Diva too), the stubborness, the sensitivity, the intensity. But he just don't get the loyal, devoted, and passionate part.

He will, though...he just doesn't know it yet. LOL


OFF - TOPIC - P.S.

I was on You.tube last night watching R.yan Les.lie TV, for some reason. I have always thought dude was a lame but my mind has been changed. That dude is SO SUPER talented! Watching him make beats is amazing. I love his voice, I love his mind. I have been converted.

Sisters

Hola peoples! How was your weekend?

Mine was good but busy.

Friday, my sister and I went to the movies to see Sex and the City. Of course. We were both big fans of the show (she owns the series DVDs) and I made sure to buy my tickets the day before so they wouldn't sell out. We loved it, by the way.
Before we went to the theatre, we went to Fuji, a restaurant similar to Benihana. The food was SO good. She tried plum wine for the first time. We had a bottle of that and sake as well. Needless to say, we had a good time. LOL
Interestingly enough, this has been the first time in a LONG time that my sister and I have gone out together.
As I said in my previous post, when we were little my sister and I were thick as thieves. Even through high school, we were close. The only thing we really argued about is clothes. We wear the same size so we were always in each other's closet. Chelle's style is great so I loved borrowing her stuff. And she liked borrowing mine but she would always ruin my shit. Leather jackets would come back ripped up. Sweaters with unexplainable stains that wouldn't come out. It got to the point where I told her she couldn't borrow my stuff anymore, period. When I went off to college, Chelle still lived at home with my parents. I still remember the night she called me at school and told me she was pregnant. I didn't believe her at first but as she explained it, I knew she was telling the truth. In high school, she was IN LOVE with this loser dude named Curtis. She'd sneak out the house at night to go see him, sneak him to our house when our parents were out or at work. I was in shock but oddly comforted by the fact that at least she had graduated high school.
I came home one weekend and she was watching TV on the couch. She hadn't told my parents about her pregnancy yet because she was still able to suck her tiny belly in. Later that night, she stuck her tummy out and I could tell it wouldn't be long before she couldn't hide it anymore.
A few weeks later, I got a frantic call from my mom. Did I know Chelle was pregnant??? Did I know she was having sex??? Did she tell me what was going on??? I played dumb. That's what siblings do. LOL
My parents told her that she had to keep the baby and made an effort to get to know Curtis' family. I'm sure they were disappointed at first but soon enough they were buying baby stuff and decorating the nursery. I'd come home some weekends amazed at how different Chelle looked each time. She was a stick so she was all belly. If you looked at her from the back, you couldn't tell she was pregnant. We'd go shopping together and at night I'd lay in the bed with her and rub cocoa butter on her stomach. At this point, she was still responsible. Taking classes at the local university and working a few days a week. Curtis's family pretended to support her.
On December 29, 2001 at 7:47 am, my nephew, Jalen Ray Murphy was born. My mom and I were in the hospital with my sister for 3 days while she was in labor. Where was Curtis, you ask? Shit, I'd still like to know the answer to that question.
After Jalen was born, my sister was still doing ok. She had the full support of my family even if she didn't have that of Curtis' family. Their role in Jalen's early life was spotty, at best. Chelle tried really, really hard to get them to do their part but they're heathens so it was almost impossible. Shortly after that, Chelle just...flipped out. For some reason, she wanted to be Ms. Independent and decided she wanted to move out. I think my parents were on her a lot as far as caring for Jalen. Chelle didn't know how to be a mother. And that showed in the nonchalant way she did things. This was my parent's first grandbaby so they weren't having it. I remember the day she moved out (into a friend's house with 56 other people living there) she wouldn't even let me hold Jalen. She was so PISSED for some reason. The people who had been there since she first announced her pregnancy, she was now against. I was hurt and I didn't understand.
She'd bring Jalen around sometimes but it was hard to go from having him around all day every day to only seeing him a couple times a week. She eventually moved into a 1 bedroom apartment down the street from my parent's. She really wanted to prove that she could do this on her own. We saw Jalen more but we also saw Michelle turn into someone we didn't know.
To this day, I still cannot say that I don't think my sister was on drugs. She just acted so...crazy, I didn't know what else it could be.
She'd have all types of people at her apartment at all times of the day and night. She'd have dudes spending the night when she and Jalen shared a bedroom. I know she was smoking around him because he'd smell like smoke when I saw him. I think she always made sure he was fed but she was losing weight like crazy.
At one point, I was living in the same apartment building as she was. I was on the first floor and she was on the fourth. I'd go upstairs sometimes to visit and no one would answer the door. I could hear Jalen talking to me through the door but he was too little to open it. My sister would be passed out in the other room. I'd try to get Jalen to wake her up but she wouldn't budge. Imagine if something were to happen to Jalen while she was asleep. This was my constant worry.
We all tried to talk to her. She didn't want to hear it. She'd curse and argue and even walk out. My mom would pop up just to see who my sister had at her apartment. If they looked shady, she would run them outta there.
My sister kept losing job after job and eventually got evicted. Her car was also repossessed. She moved back in with my parents for a while but she was so unruly that my mom kicked her out. But my parents told her they were keeping Jalen with them. Fortunately, my sister agreed that would be for the best. She didn't have anywhere to live, really. She moved in with a friend and Jalen continued to live with my parents.
You could see the difference in him. He thrived in the stable home environment that my parents offered him.
When my sister came around, she was often drunk or high. She claimed up and down that she didn't smoke weed but you could smell it all over her. Again, we all tried to talk to her but she blew us off. My mom threatened to file for custody if Chelle didn't get it together and my sister threatened to hate her forever.
About 6 months ago, my parents allowed my sister to move back in. I don't know what the change was for her but it was extreme.
Michelle obtained and kept a job. She enrolled in Medical Assistant classes and dropped all the people she used to hang around. She started going to church and spending QUALITY time(fishing, bowling, movies - not just sleeping while he watched cartoons) with Jalen. She started helping out around the house. Cooking, cleaning, paying bills.
She is now on the Dean's List at her school and will be graduating in September. Jalen is on the President's list at his school and is doing so, so well.
Before, Chelle and I didn't see each other or talk to each other. Talking to her was like talking to a brick wall. The people that she surrounded herself with influenced her in so many negative ways. We were not close at all.
Now, she and I talk a couple times a week. We talk about school and boys and clothes and hair and makeup. I feel like I have my sister back and I thank God for that.

Kids

Me, my brother and my sister are all pretty close in age. My brother is only 3 years older and my sister is 2 years younger than me.

I'm pretty sure me and sis got along for the most part when we were small, hellish tikes but me and my brother were ALWAYS going at it.

I think it all started when I slapped an orange section out of his mouth. From that point on, he plotted and schemed on my demise.

I remember one time he put handfuls upon handfuls of grease in my freshly washed hair. That thick Blue Magic shit. Then he took me into the bathroom with a pair of scissors and cut all my hair off. All of it. I think I was 4, maybe 5. Needless to say my mom beat.his.ass.

That didn't deter him. My brother had a huge collection of Hot Wheels cars. When the older ones got all messed up, he'd take the tires off and try to "repair" it. He was dumb. Anyway, he decided to give my 2 year self one of the tires from his Hot Wheels car. I promptly put it in my mouth and CHOKED! Like, face turning blue choking. My granny came into my room to take me out of my crib and damn near broke my back trying to beat the tire out of my throat. I finally coughed it up. Needless to say my mom, granny and daddy beat.his.ass.

My brother and my nephew were in town this past Memorial Day weekend and we sat and reminisced on our childhood stories. We have tons. We were truly some little hellions. Only my brother and sister got caught, though, so I'm still looked at as the angel. What?! You mean to tell me, you believe this little face could do ANYTHING wrong?